Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Oh, the bittersweet fruits of meditation...

On letting go...


Why is letting go so hard? We all hold on to something... someone, some emotion, something in our past, etc. Holding on to thoughts, people, emotions, etc. helps us form identities of who we are and what we are capable of becoming or doing in the future...

The present is the great unknown. Most people say that the future is the great unknown, but actually we do a pretty great job of deceiving ourselves into knowing the future by planning. But you cant deceive yourself into living in the present. Its living in the present that we are most afraid of.

Letting go is difficult because when you let go, you realize there might be more possibilities for your future than you planned for, and you become aware of your self-deception that things would be/could be only one way. So then the future becomes the great unknown again, and now you've realized the present's role in uncovering this and how unknown living in the present is, and you look to the past for comfort in being the one thing you 'know'. Until you realize that even your past isnt that concrete because its all based on your perception, and now that your perception of the future has changed, your perception of the past is likely to change as well.

When all your perceptions and preconceived notions of the past and future break down, that's when you can living in the present. That's when you can let go. That's when you can live... now.

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